Monday, January 24, 2011

start frm the basic...

dad brought eld. sis & I to sports complex parking area to learn driving today... lol! it's been more than 3 yrs i din touch the steering wheel... phew! ever since i got my license. ahahaha...

well... unexpectedly, thr's few companions too... also wit their parent guiding them frm beside. it's quite funny btw... seems like a driving school range thr...

my sis goes first... and we kept taking turns. going good at start... but after the last round, my legs r tired... (it's manual) so i goes wilder and bumpier. lol. i wanted to try on the road... but after so long, it gets me nervous n scared to try. dad afraid of our skills too on the road. so he play on the safe side. hehehe... were thr for bout couple of hrs.

back home,  felt tired n sleepy. n i dunno why i dun have the mood to go church today & so i din go. mum suddenly came up n said wanted to 'tapao' kfc. so went wit her to buy. *mum spends me* hee...

at night, suddenly after take my dinner, had toothache. gosh! it din stop but cont. up to headache... can't rili endure more so lucky bro back at the time & asked for med. take 1&half paracetamol. luckily the pain gone quick. phew~

mum advised to go for dentist tomoro & asked dad to bring me. i actually really wanted my mum but i know it's impossible since she's babysitting. hmm... bro kept advised me to go for private. but i'm worried i dun have the money. since i'm so 'broken' already. hahaha...

guess what, sis came back so late... and as expected, she bought her new phone! xperia x10! damnit! arghh!! i'm still using the same old phone... figuring when then i can really bought mine??? how i wish thr's cash in front of me pronto!

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

problem solved!

yippie! i'm so happy that i finally fixed sis' laptop. phew!!!
after a couple of hours waiting, it works.
thank God that i found the solution.

damn antivirus 8... what a scam!
lucky enough i'm brilliant that i search tru the internet. hahahaha...
was worried at first my sis laptop need to reformat.& even might need to wait till Sat to fix.
and she's already angry at me. and last night i seen her 'sour' face. oops!
and now... problem solved!

Monday, January 17, 2011

monday!

felt good today... as i dun need to endure the suffering working as a salesperson!!! turned on my hp, relieved that no missed calls or any sms seen coming in on the screen. haha

it's been like so long since i played & care for my furkids... just knew that Marcy has been out of dog food for 2 days. and only been given liver... poor her. not sure why bro din buy kibbles for her since yesterday night did went to 1borneo. i hate him for not being responsible. dun get it why he wants to rear a husky since if u can't afford to do so. (lucky i warned him not bring in another more though i love furkids)

i can't bear to let Marcy only eat liver for the whole day. even this morning, she have diarrhea due to having livers only. so with no choice (bcuz mum dun want to drive out), i walked out to shop to buy canned food for her...

while still choosing whether to buy canned food or kibbles, i just remembered that today is monday!!, and monday is NO plastic day. gosh! still lucky, that i only wanted to buy one thing. eventually chose back the canned food which i ever bought before & went to the counter to pay.

came to my surprise, it cost me rm11.00 for tht canned food. only about a couple mths passed, yet the price raised rapidly. before, it's only RM7.70. damn! real fast those business man earning their ringgits. i even not believing the price so i ask the cashier to re-check. lol. still, it's the same. no choice but to pay. arghh!!! waste another few ringgits!

an unfortunate evening for me... the 8pm singapore drama series aired finish already last friday. and it's the Last ep. (and been blamed for having cg at our hse in result din gt to watch the end) since eld. sis notebook is on, so i just tried use hers' to search for the last ep to download.

all of a sudden, (and i dun even know what really happen until now) came up saying that the notebook hv virus. it blocked all the running programs and worst still, came out a window urged me to download the antivirus 8 to remove it. afraid of the laptop been infected by the virus, so i downloaded it & installed. but then, it says i need to buy it to activate the license. *dang*

i was damned worried cuz i know i will get the scolding! and yes, been scolded and blamed of downloading that stupid antivirus... duh!!! (i dun even know wat it is) even i din dl it, it's still blocking all the programs frm running. damn frust right now. my hands r tied. i dunno what to do. n why it happened on me??? i only can kept quiet and let the blame on me... as the cause is still by me.

hopefully i can do something out tomoro...

Sunday, January 16, 2011

relieved!!!

can't really sleep during the night... kept thinking bout the job..& what should i do? prayed to God that hopefully he will give a sign so that i know exactly what decision i should make. i'm asking if God really can give me the so called winning 2 hundred thousand rm frm reader's digest (means i'm sure can take the decision to quit the job).

woke up & turn on my hp. and a msg coming in. a msg frm  my 'leader'. informing me that they will be having bbq this morning & invite me to join. totally not interested in this kind of fellowship & i just simply rejected it. i'm still so disturbed ("fan") bout the matter...

tried to dashed off the prob... having great time wit furkids..while bro & sis washing their cars. eld. sis bf's car was here... it's really in a bad condition due to lack of care. inside really omits a bad smell & even spider webs can be seen. lol. claimed that been 2 yrs nvr been wash. gosh. i dun rili get it how he use the car. such irresponsible living thing.

felt like really wanted to try and drive... it's been over 3 yrs i din drive. nvr drive out since took my license. lol.

today's sermon like hinting me the green light to quit my job. which to lead a BALANCE life. inside & out. and i was thinking that i wouldn't have my balanced life if i work in this company. there's no time for myself & God. but all for WORK! it's sucks! btw, alan approached me & we chatted a bit. he said his company have a vacancy & asked if interested, try for the interview. it sounded good to me... guess God is opening a way for me.. another opportunity opened! but still, under CONSIDERATION... since not sure whether it's convenient to work thr... hmm..

mum said she wanted to go shopping tonight. so planned after back frm church service. bro suddenly said he wanted to join. hahaha... so while waiting for bro changed, sis kind of asking how's the work actually... mum actually already hinting me to quit the job yesterday. after much telling more & describing bout the working system, they ask me to quit immediately! i dunno why... but i felt totally relieved!!! i felt the confirmation to do the right thing. so they asked me to not going work tomoro. hahaha...

felt like the weight on my shoulder are gone straightaway... my mood totally changed!

back frm 1borneo, watched tv till midnight. n only bout 2 am i sent a msg to my leader... saying that i'm quitting. quickly then i off my cell phone. i wanted to have a gud sleep n i dun intend to received call when i'm still sleeping in the morning. :)

what a day... full of surprises!!!...

just back few hours ago frm award achievements of Perfect Pentagon @ Palace Hotel. just fyi, the hotel has been transformed into a much beautiful hotel, a 4-star hotel now which compared to 3-star before. it's a total transformation and new after so many years back when i went there.

today is full of surprises things happened. and i wonder what God really wants to show me... right now, i have a lots of mixture feelings and thoughts...which i didn't quite to expect...

today i was unwilling to wake up early, really...  especially at the time at 5.30 AM! i have no choice but to follow my sis ride to my 'brand new office' (it's my official first day) since no one seems to be able to send me to office that early. so i just followed and went to morning prayer. i still don't wish to go for morning prayer... after so long i din.. feels weird enough in a sudden appeared in morning prayer... lol.

but one thing i tried to do this morning... i prayed earnestly unto the Lord to guide me in my future.. which in my career and the fullfilling of my needs. although i still dunno how to hear or expect what God's answer is. especially in these few days, i'm having mentality war within myself. whether to continue take on this job or not?? remains a question...

i reached early to office. unlucky enough i forgot my water bottle. so have to bought one at orange. ughh... i really dun like all the so called 'business partner' (colleagues)...  it gives me the insecure feeling to work ard wit these ppl. especially the guys have the perverted look in them. i'm not trying to be racism. it's just that we r so much different in various ways. & totally opposite status...

first when i stepped into the meeting room... gives me quite a shock. the music blasted no diff. in a disco pub. i dun get it why they have to turn on the music so loud, hardly to talk wit each other. the manager talks by shouting and so the guys in giving response. just like in a motivation program. *faints* then started wit an ice breaker called Bingo. i hate that game!! and heard that who ever loses needs to do strip dance??? wtf! perv!! lucky this morning they din punished anyone to do so. (worried if every morning needs to gone tru this kind of crazy games. ohh.., please NO!)

then, we stayed back as others went for out-field. breakfast was spent by the manager. he's really kind of stingy person (as expected). still using the very old model hp. lol.

learned more bout how the company works today (pre-management as told). but i'm worried much bout the time of working there... it's totally overly over time & the suck thing is, i can't spend time wit my family (included NO own personal time/entertainment) and of course i'm much more afraid i don get the time for God. bcuz it happens that fri the day we went back damn late! and frm wat i understand, the higher level u r, the more time u have to spend in the OFFICE! and i already stuck for the pre-first day (2nd interview) which only released at 7! and it's FRIDAY! gosh!

and even for today, i got cheated which was told will be finished by 1 or 2pm. and as i guessed, again i only back at 4pm... (was told at 3pm only finish) and earlier i already dated my fren at 4.30pm. unfortunately, i have to delayed the time & i burdened my fren waited for me and forced to take my dinner outside. (of course, i can't save a penny!!)

well, in a rush took a bath & went out. still not knowing wat i'm gonna attend for tonight. but i dun care, i just want to have fun! went to tanamera for a drink. kinda disappointed for not going to Kopi Ping. hahahaha. well, u know wat i'm thinking.. lol. while i'm having my dinner there for my frens already took pizza earlier while waiting for me. : ) i just ordered a hazel white coffee and sandwich tuna. tried to order the cheapest to save as much as i can. but actually i still can't eat much after recovered frm sickness. weird that i can't even finish my 'soto ayam' this morning.

on the way while in the car, was given the ticket and were asked to choose a number. just for lucky draw purpose. i gave them to choose first. but since thr's few more selection, so i simply choose 0077747. i like the 7 bcuz i guess God loves number 7 too! : )
heavy rain. reached palace hotel. and saw Alan, a church fren at the registration counter, coincidently working in this company. while waiting since we arrived early, another fren of Jesse came sitting down beside me. so i just be friendly & started a conversation wit her. another coincidence! we came to know the same person... which is Anthony! lol... what a small world it is!!

and so we chatted w/o realizing, the event starts. heard much testimonies... and my mind seems to really opened! the testimonies were great frm those manager levels. it gives me much determination and inspiration to become like one of them. the shocking find out was that the profit they can get in a week r much more than in my current job company expectations. i was like wow!! & the best thing frm what i understand is i dun need to do overtime... and they dun need to open a new company even if they r in the highest level. which means i can do other things which i like while just waiting my xtra money to flow into my pocket. *evil grin*

so was thinking... should i continue to try on this job? i really wish to quit this job. but it's not in my hands to do so. as i'm already not working for long... i gave my family the authority. as i dun wish to be said work-not-long habit. or God allows me to do in this direct sales? i feel the urged to join... n the name which already changed to PERFECT... it seems resembles God.

the surprised part was, i was one of the lucky 15 lucky draws! lol. as i rmb, i dun think i ever get a prize frm lucky draw. got a product for car's engine. since i have no use of it, i gave it to my bro.

so many surprises happened in a day : )

Friday, January 14, 2011

2nd interview...

today went for the 2nd interview...
damn so early to office... i'm still not sure whether my decision was right to come back today.
felt weird in this office environment...
while waiting for some1 to approached, sent a msg to Felicia to reject the job offer. since today is the last date to confirm on my decision. (better to reject than not) 
the manager came & pass me a sheet of paper... juz another iq test. i dun get the purpose of answering these wit the job... give me a headache to think for the answers. urghh!!
been introduced to Justina... will be my future leader.
today followed them to out-field. walk the whole day wit heels. damn!

i'm the smartest in my appearance... the only female who wears office wear and the rest wearing ordinary clothes... and i felt that i'm being cheated.. from what i did experienced today... it's the same as doing sales outside. no other different than any other salesperson.

it reminds me again whether i really did been selected for the 2nd interview. *regretted* totally it's not what i thought the job to be...

well, it's totally the waste of time outside today. making me sick just thinking to work wit these whole bunch of ppls. totally worried will be infected by them for being fed with lady gaga's songs & conversations non other than sexual (18sx).

furthermore they seem to be 'hating' chinese. *racism* btw, they din really do their work... resting time more than working. even waiting for the time to pass. that's y i dun like those 'kind' of ppl... (yeah, guess i kind of racism too. ahha...)

been offered the work... but inside actually was thinking hard whether i'm really suitable in this job or should i take it. will see how...

thought i can off-work on time today... but only 7 i was told to go... damn! i dun get it why they r so free and still lingering thr not going back... thank God for the whole arrangement tonight, that everything goes well... since tonight is the first cg gathering.

well, tomoro need to back again to start my very first day. *sigh*
 

Thursday, January 13, 2011

got an interview today...
the post of event crew/coordinator which found frm the internet...
few days earlier... did call the number stated on the website but not answered & the person dun seem care to call back. even sent a msg to ask for interview... but still no reply. i dun wish just to give up cuz it's the job which i really like to find. so i search google and found out the company's add & telephone num.

asked to come for interview at asia city. actually i got the feeling that it's the same company which i ever go for interview before. was selected for the 2nd interview but i din go. but i'm not 100% sure & i want that kind of job so just gave it a try.
the appointed time is 11.00am... a bit late reached as dad bring the cage base to weld it up earlier.
to my surprise, it's really the SAME company i went before. lol.

and guess what, when i went inside, thr's a guy i thought which is the office boy or work as an admin thr... but actually he's the interviewer & holds the post as a manager. hilarious! totally he dun have the manager look...

thr's one thing i dun get it... it's totally different post frm what i want. totally none related wit events... and frm wat i understand, the job is non different frm doing sales... and the working hours are longer... even on Sat need to work half day.

was asked to stand-by mode... (means always beside my hp) wait for the phone call... but asked to come tomoro morning for 2nd interview... was a bit blur & not sure whether to return tomoro... since i've waited for the whole day din received any calls..

hmm... but decided just go and see how it goes...

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

bro's birthday!!!

it's 12th January.. again i realised time flies real fast!!

it's bro's birthday today. so sis planned to spend for the dinner tonight.
i actually did planned to buy a gift for him... might be a shirt.. but din get to buy since din went out shopping. hmm... might only wait for next year though... felt the guilt since nvr bought him a gift.

well, tonight's dinner was booked by his gf. hehehe... we dine at welcome seafood restaurant @ Asia City.
it's my first there... when i went in to the closed area (inside which is air-conditioned)
i just felt weird... as everyone was looking at us... felt like thr's something wrong wit us... hahahaha...
and i was soo jealous when i saw everyone using touch-screen phones... arghh... when i gonna get one??? ishh..

the dishes were only okay!!! and only that one damn fish already cost rm65!! lol... and that's the most expensive dish among others that we ordered. even crab & prawn can't compared. hahaha... wth...
the service were kinda poor though... might be too many people...

well we go for "2nd round" at veda blu... just go for take-away... hehehe... but actually i still prefer hyatt's ice cream... but not sure how much it cost... bro such a wasty... left about one scoop of vanilla... he asked me to throw... but funny when back home, Marley pushed me frm the back and my hand slipped... the ice cream fell on the floor.. hahaha... so Marley licked it away clean... guess he likes it so much! at least it's not wasted. : P
"yit dao gee"...

after went in, as usually Marcy was excited. kept jumping. and oops... the cage base broke... (it's actually really in a poor condition already) poor her.. i really wanted & planned to buy a new cage for her... but oh well... thr's whole in my pocket. i wished i got a job pronto!! no one have the budget to buy a new one.. so just bring it to welding it up tomoro... ngehhehehe... not a bad thing to happen~

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

frustrated!

today is tuesday... i feel so frustrated to find a job quick...
the date line is killing me actually... although i know what my final decision is... reject the offer! or i like to called it a JOB! i won't say it's an offer as i dun think it that way... totally it's not even an offer... ridiculous one indeed.

yesterday went for an interview... which a friend recommended. actually to help her in the office as she wanted to do sales. i'm planning to work for few months just to earn enough to survive temporarily. she knows that i only wanted to work for not long... and i don't intend to tell the boss during the interview...

and... oh, i failed to do so... as i know what he's expecting... he hint me.. and so i am honest wit him. cuz i felt tired of running company by company... i wish to find a proper job which i like to be stable... and yet he hires me... but it's totally not a good news to me. and guess what... i might really just take that job working few months..but i think twice bcuz he only asked me to start after chinese new year??? gosh..just a few hundreds n ringgits he even don't wish to give.. what a stingy guy. he even wants to save that 'ang pow' money. *friggin hilarious*

he expect highly that i will work for him for long... i dun really like the way he says things out. or his concept of living... and that's y i hate finding those jobs. jobs that totally giving such a low salary. salary that won't be enough for living.. and how do u expect i even can save??? everything was raised... especially gas... kept on raising the price but when is the salary???

that's what the boss always doing... kept pressing the employee's salary to the lowest but they kept earning?? what the fuck was that? we as people who r not fortunate enough to be born with a golden key... that's y we tries to strive to be one of them... yet, it's not easy. living need CASH.

i hate it when he tries to debate with me. hmm... or actually i think i like to debate with him. unlucky for me for i not gud enough wit my chinese. damn!

i'm a person who wants to strive for success! and i'm not a person who just satisfied with what i get w/o improving. dun expect me doing clerical works for the rest of my life for that lil penny of urs???... n don't dream of getting a knows-how-to-work employee by ur low salary... that's a NO! dun make me laugh! u know it by ur previous experiences but u still not AWAKE yet huh!!

i just don't get it when everyone said it's ok with that price... should i say them simpleton??? i'm not trying to be racism... but that's the way they think. yes, we should be thankful for what we have. i do. but it's just not everything goes that way... that's when the bosses r taking this as an advantage for them to earn billions.

hopefully i can get good news real soon...

Friday, January 7, 2011

Nu Yer Resolutions!

the year 2010 never seems good to me...
and hey, i need a new year resolutions...
hopefully this list can help me to pick my target well... *crossed fingers & pray hard*

1. hopefully i can find a job i like best. probably regarding to event.
2. earn salary at least rm1500. (if it's my luck)
3. loan a car out & independently drive out
4. change my old cellphone at least
5. buys a laptop
6. fully owned a dslr or a compact camera
7. travel
8. reads at least half of the bible
9. slimmer
10. to be added...

added by luck: a bf... lol.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Twenty Eleven

new year!!!
plan to go for Lily's wedding... but i cancelled since sis wanna straight frm morning prayer...
so after the wedding, sis back to pick me up...
go for a chinese restaurant at damai... so many ppl were there...
it stunned me for a moment the price were cheap for a bowl of 'pan mian' which only cost rm4.50 compare to a price of rm7.
i only ate half of it not bcuz it tastes bad but i'm full! hahaha... it's like my stomach size shrunk since i've been sick n lost appetite for few days... my pants were so loose when i wore them...

so continue wit our shirt searching to buy for Anthony. (that was our first plan) as his birthday party was tonight.
both of us were so tired... dunno y. so quickly we head to f.o.s once we reached centre point.
lucky today f.o.s have 20% discount on every item.
we quickly found 3 shirts... and we both choose for size L. we called and his sis said pick for size XL.
but we turned a deaf ear instead. as we tot he's not that FAT!

we were so happy to find what we wanted. we headed back home and find bro was outside.
so i quickly asked him to help try it on... n his first glance was... it's small.
oh gosh!!! we were so wrong! though we kept on encourage ourselves that he can fit in...
i got the urge wanted to return back n change the sizes. but sis was too tired n lazy to go there again...
btw, the receipt printed not returnable or exchangeable. OMG!
(that's the consequences of us acting smart! now gotcha!)

we just left it so. n added another spiritual book.
thr at night, the food were awesome! n during the cake-cutting, suddenly his sis asked to change his new clothes (which is frm us) hahahaha...
he came out frm his room w/o changed to even one. oops, means not fit! sorry, dude!
well, he said he will wear it someday! hopefully...

we went back early... i then stuck up with tv programmes.. watch twilight: new moon & continue again with hellboy 2. only slept at 3am. lol. wat a gud first day of the year!